It doesn't matter, though. I'm using this mostly as an outlet for myself. The most frightening bit of it all is that I read my posts and then wig out, thinking of all the things I could have said differently, but won't edit because you can't take back things you say in real life.
To be honest, I wouldn't take anything back I've ever said. I'm pretty good about holding my tongue when I have to, even if it means breaking something when I'm alone in order to relieve the stress. While that may seem frivolous, you have to realize, I'm one of those "bottle" people. The kind that can go forever without ever backlashing or even seeming to be bothered by insults or abuse, but then violently explodes a while down the road when all that pent up aggression finally can't fit into the weak little container that is my body. When that happens, things get broken and people get hurt. In both senses of the word.
So instead of letting it get that far, I try to release it when I get it in some small way or another. Like breaking pencils or ripping up old A&M T-shirts Hehehehe. But I take care not to get other people involved.
Because when that happens, I don't need to be a supernerd to scare people away.
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